More questions

-I place a high value on making a contribution to society. I feel that we should have a purpose that is outside ourselves, as much as possible, as much of the time. But then again, if there's no cosmic meaning, then why? Why bother? And that also seems to contradict with people's right to just be, or sometimes do things just for themselves. For example, I think mothers should work, because staying at home is not a real contribution to society. But I can also understand the view that it is one's personal life that they get to choose how to live. So I guess I haven't quite reconciled that.

-I once told a friend how making a life-long commitment to someone seems so daunting, that I would really need to know we're going to last before I could make the commitment. My friend said, " But what's the point of and fun in living life if you know what is always going to happen?" But HOW do you reconcile that with making a promise to be with someone for the rest of your life?

Paradoxical Ideas

Some questions that have been racking my brain lately are:

-I believe we create our own realities so I visualize the day I will have in the morning, yet why does so much happen that is beyond my control?

-I feel like I have a strong connection with someone, but maybe he doesn't feel connected with me. Then does a connection really exist?

-I believe we should work hard to contribute to our worlds, but why bother, if there is no cosmic meaning and life could be taken from us at any moment?

-I thought I was confident and felt good about myself, but why do I seem to push away or shy away from the men I really like?

-Can you really be in a loving relationship without stifling your own individual self and goals?

-I place a high importance on seeking knowledge and asking questions, but why is it that the more I do, the less I feel I know and the more confused I get?