Storybook

Have you ever had a storybook-type experience? It's breath-taking, like you're in a movie and that no such thing could happen in real life. You want more of it, can't believe it happened, and can't trust it, all at the same time. Can you trust it? Do you ever feel like maybe you don't deserve it?

Bittersweet

I think the term bittersweet is an understatement. So many people and situations have given me the bittersweet feeling, and it can feel so much more heart-wrenching than bitter. Focusing on the sweet is a good way to cope, or just moving forward in life with the lessons-learned from those people and experiences. But by doing that, are we running away from the difficult and necessary acts of tying up loose ends, getting closure, and telling people what they deserve to hear?

"It's darkest before the dawn."

I've heard this term before but never truly understood or experienced it until now. This past week I have received some feedback regarding my work that was difficult to take. At the same time, it was a wake-up call and a "kick in the pants" so that I can make some decisions and changes prior to there being a chance of something bad happening. The experience has also forced me to reevaluate my life, and myself. I've become more aware of aspects of myself that I do not like and changes that I want to make, and that is a hard realization. My self-concept is being challenged, so though "real life" experiences are hard, I guess it a growing experience.

I am not quite happy at the moment, and am not particularly energetic for the work I need to do. But I am quite content. For the most part I am content with where I am at this stage in my life, and I know I have done a lot with the cards I've been dealt. I am also content with knowing my abilities and the initiatives I have taken to change what I want to change, rather than complaining or sitting idly. At the same time, amazing how much more work needs to take place in order for me to become truly happy...

Patience

We've all heard how patience is a virtue. In theory I always understood that, but I think now I understand it on a different level. The things that had scared and saddened me a few months ago seem, to a degree, to be sorting themselves out (knocking on wood). In time, our desires can become reality, but that is if we do the things that are hardest to do: keep a positive attitude, work hard, and do the things within our control without attachment. And we may think we're being patient but instead, we are often times just ruminating in our minds about what we want, which is not really patience. Keeping positive thoughts and telling ourselves that "it will come in time" will create positive energy, in turn increasing the chances of getting what we want.