"It's darkest before the dawn."

I've heard this term before but never truly understood or experienced it until now. This past week I have received some feedback regarding my work that was difficult to take. At the same time, it was a wake-up call and a "kick in the pants" so that I can make some decisions and changes prior to there being a chance of something bad happening. The experience has also forced me to reevaluate my life, and myself. I've become more aware of aspects of myself that I do not like and changes that I want to make, and that is a hard realization. My self-concept is being challenged, so though "real life" experiences are hard, I guess it a growing experience.

I am not quite happy at the moment, and am not particularly energetic for the work I need to do. But I am quite content. For the most part I am content with where I am at this stage in my life, and I know I have done a lot with the cards I've been dealt. I am also content with knowing my abilities and the initiatives I have taken to change what I want to change, rather than complaining or sitting idly. At the same time, amazing how much more work needs to take place in order for me to become truly happy...