Lonliness

How is it that you can, or I guess I should say I, (I mean, I should be honest and direct and just admit that I'm talking about myself) be with a group of people and still feel alone?

I know life is so short, yet why do I let myself get myself down?

Why do I feel forgotten and left behind?

Why do I feel like being passive aggressive rather than taking the few short moments I have on earth to just tell people how I feel?

Why can't I just ask for a hug?

Why do I always want more when there is so much that I have to be thankful for? Why do I spend so many few precious moments crying?

Why? Why do I do this? Why do we do such things to ourselves? Why do we run away from, with a false bravado mind you, the one thing we want? We deserve to be loved.

Don't we?